It's Time I Revive My Blog

It's been a long times since I have posted an entry here. Probably because I concentrated (NOT) on the last few months of Senior Year and maybe (who am I kidding) Tumblr is taking over my life. I mean it's very accessible and very addictive but enough about Tumblr. It's time we get down to business. I start college in a month or so and I can't actually believe it.
It's not like a very big step like my sister did by moving to another country but just by moving out of my house and stay at a dorm for the rest of my college life is kind of a big climate change for me. I am preparing myself for the big change. From a private all girls school to a private (is DLSU a private school?) co-ed university. For all those who are wondering what my course is, it's literature. So as I was saying, I am preparing for the big change. I am taking yoga classes and exercising daily... I'm not doing it all for College but I might as well be. These people are vicious, they will judge me just by my size. Okay... that was mean... not just to me but for the others out there. I am trying to build my confidence up so whatever size I am, I am comfortable with everything.
I do hope I met a lot of cool people and probably make some a lot of friends. Pray for me that I will survive next school year. Probably post some more when my life becomes interesting. For the meantime check out my other blog. I usually just reblog but whatever.

So I spent about an hour or so in a bookstore

Actually, 2 bookstores. I was looking through books and I keep on thinking, "Why are most of the books about Vampires?" People these days are writing more about vampires than about human and their everyday lives. I really hate it. Since the topic "Vampire" is so overrated right now. I was once a fan of the Twilight Series and when I found out how stupid it is (and boring the book is) I have realize how stupid writing a book about vampires falling in love with humans. Unless of course the vampire is Damon Salvatore from The Vampire Diaries, then you can write a book about how he's so awesome. I don't like the book much since its plot is way to something but I do like the show. Okay, what I'm saying is if you're writing about Vampires make sure they don't fall in love with a crazed teenager who can't live without that freakin' vampire. HE'S A DUMBASS VAMPIRE! WHY FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM?! And Robert Pattinson is an ugly guy... he's not worth the love.


I'm being a hater again. Which means I should better leave.

OKAY BLOG READERS! (If there is one!) ON APRIL 26, 2010 this blog will officially be ONE YEAR OLD! HAHAHAHAH! Our first year anniversary has come. I'm excited and a little bit worried that I might forget about it.

I just tagged Jonathan Groff in this blog and it was totally random.

Invisible and Indivisible

OH MY DARCY!
2 MORE WEEKS AND I'M FREE FROM SCHOOL (well for just a couple of months)

Right now I'm doing me research paper which is a total blow since I don't know how to write one. What the hell is wrong with me. I woke up around 6:30 just to do it but currently I have 2 paragraphs of chapter one and no introduction (since she made me do it again). I spent an hour doing me 1 sentence thesis statement and look what I'm doing. My goal for today is: to finish my research paper by tonight or 1 am. :D

Flash Back Part 1

Text Messages (Still saved in my inbox):
From: Karla
01/07/2009
01:55 AM
Happy birthday,
Janine. :)
Ilysm. :) Take care.

From: Bea Mata
01/07/2009
05:49 AM
Janine, happy birthday!
-Sammy Panda Bear-

Whoa. Text messages from old friend. Times have change since then. :(
Diary Entries:
January 5 (Monday)
I want to go home! This sucks!!
Things to Do:
[x] Take Down Notes/Homework
[x] Get Test Scores
[x] Study
[x] Do HW
Events:
-Resumption of classes
-Giving out of test scores
Test Scores:
English 87%
Filipino 85%
Cooking 89%
Biology 79%
AP 82%
Math 81%
Music 86%
CL 87%
Stat 85%
Computer 90%
Facebook Wall Posts:


Blog Entries: (From: http://kingspinderman.blogspot.com/)

Friday, January 2, 2009

2009

Hey guys... I'm back... har har... like anyone is reading this.

So....

What Now?

++ purred Miss Janine at 12:30 AM

My Gold Stars are a Metaphor

Okay. I just woke up and I had this awful dream about school. It was awful because I dreamt about school. The dream was like they don't want me to leave school and I was like AHHHHH when I woke up.
Blogger is saying that dreamt is not a word.
Dreamt- A past tense and a past participle of dream
There! hahahahaha.

Ugh. My mom just abandoned me here with out food. I think she went to Trinoma. I don't know. I was dreaming about school when she was waking me up and I was still sleepy. Damn. Dreaming about school isn't suppose to be called dream, especially when you're dreaming about it while having your vacation, they should call it nightmare (well duh, since the opposite of a dream is a nightmare.). There's nothing much to do around here. I should have agreed to go with her to Trinoma but unfortunately I don't have money to buy anything. Stupid life without money.

Ugh. I should have agreed to go out today. I feel so lazy when I'm on my bed and using my laptop. I should take a walk around the subdivision later.

"Being great at something is going to change it. Being part of something special makes you special, right?"

3 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS!
LET US ALL CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS IN GOING TO MASS!!

Books to Finish this Christmas Break:
1. The Prince- Niccolo Machiavelli
2. The Vampire Diaries 1-4- L.J. Smith
3. Journey to the Center of the Earth- Jules Verne

It's just a 2 week vacation.

Dead Until Dark

Do you know what I really hate, apart from this shit I'm doing called life? I really hate one subject that gives us homework that I can't finish and that it's holding me back from my other homework! CRAP! I have to study for chem and do my English proposal. I can't move on because I haven't finished this shitty homework because YOU didn't explain to me clearly what the hell I'm going to do with it! I'm really sick and tired of you blabbing all day and giving shits! I hate you! I've tried to do it a few times but I really can't seem to finish it. If I don't survive this week, you know why! I'm really sick and tired right now and if you want to report this blog to anybody go ahead I would rather die now than continue studying and studying and DIE trying! Seriously, if you think the end of the world will happen on 2012 why are we still studying? Why not make everyday our last day? How am I to make everyday my last day if school keeps on giving me hell. I'm really really tired. I don't want to continue doing that stupid homework!

SAVE THE TREES, YOU HYPOCRITES!

For those who dare print out this entry and give this to any teacher this is what I'm going to say to you: Someday, you'll feel the way I've felt and there's no one who can help you, hypocrite! And someday I'll get you back. You will never know how and you will never know when just remember don't mess with me when I'm really really pissed! Thank you for your kind consideration.

P.S. This is a one time event. Don't make it happen again (that's for you!).

P.P.S. Sorry for the vile language.

Shall You Compare Me To A Summer's Day?

The answer is: Yes, you shall!

It's been very long since my last post. har-har. Like anyone cares. I'm having this late night cramming thing where I forgot to study for the whole weekend then decides to study the midnight before Monday and I just finish reading 2 chapters of Noli book and I've marked 3 chapters that I've skipped because I got lazy and didn't read it. =))
I'm suppose to study English so that I could study for Computer tomorrow but right now seems so...? ahahah! I'm really tired (can't you see?) so I'm probably not making sense right now but who cares! I'm fully tired right now, not just because it's 12 something am and I'm still studying; no, it's because last week was so tiring that I've forgot that the following week will be as much as hell as before but good thing after a very hellish week I'm going to sit back and complain about the graphics of New Moon. Yes! 5-er 4 more days till New Moon and I'm soooooooo exited... NOT! You know what's more exciting than me getting sarcastically excited about new moon? Guess what? You know what? Guess what? PRACTICUM! ahahah! I'm excited yet scared of the results. Speaking of results, they're going to reveal to us who is the next SHS top model... just kidding... they're going to show us our grades for the 2nd quarter this wednesday (Oo-er).

For the Practicum:

Pre-order your bubbles right now before it get sold out! (Okay, this is a joke! ahahaha. I really had to post this in facebook because it's so hilarious! Everyone is posting about pre-ordering shirts and ballers but I'm pre-selling bubbles. It's for the younger demographic and the younger costumers. What's not to like about bubbles? If you could answer that, please tell me. Don't make me blow you a bubble!)

For Laughs:

(Just for laughs. I could control myself. I HAD TO POST THIS!)

P.S.
I'm so in love with Landon

P.P.S.
I'm gonna leave now!

P.P.P.S
Isn't Landon so hot?

I just found something

It's not a long story if you think about it. I was about to use the family computer when I saw that the drawer of the desk where the computer is is open. I looked at it for a very long time (how long you may ask? A very long time that it could probably tomorrow! That's how sarcastically long it was). As I was saying, I was looking at it when I saw a paper, a very colorful paper of yellow-green and purple. I looked at it and there written on that paper was a poem. A poem that I wrote about a few years ago. You may say that that something was a piece of history waiting to be broadcast on history channel but no for me it was a piece of unprofessional poem that I made a few years ago. It was a very sincere poem for my mum and dad. It goes like this:

You Are
(For mom and dad)

You are the one who brought me in this world
You are the one who gave me food and water
You are the one who loved me
You are my mother and father

You are the one who gave your life for me
Your strength is like an old Narra tree
But at the end we'll learn to love
We'll be twinkling liike the stars above

"Love is like a thousand things!"

T'was a very dear poem, I should say. Though it sounded wrong; "Your strength is like an old Narra tree"? Seriously? How could I compare human strength to a Narra tree that is old. But it's a figure of speech, I suppose. I probably made this when I was in the 2nd grade or something because of that Narra part. Oh well, we will never know. Now I know where my parents keep all my letters to them (i.e. in the drawer that is seldom opened. :| tsk tsk tsk). Maybe I should write poems again. Maybe the next poem I make is a tragedy "My death at school" or "An unfortunate thing that happened while making homework".

WAITING FOR MY SISTER TO GO ONLINE!!!

Before doing the the most nervy b of a homework

I just had to post this.

The Losing It Scale (by the ace-gang):

1. Minor Tizz
2. Complete Tizz and To-Do
3. Strop
4. A Visit to Strop Central
5. F.T. (Funny Turn)
6. Spaz Attack
7. Complete Ditherspaz
8. Nervy B. (Nervous Breakdown)
9. Complete Nervy B.
10. Ballisiticisimus

The Having the Hump Scale (by the ace gang):

1. ignorez-vouzing
2. sniffing (in a I-told-you-so way)
3. head-tossing and fringe fiddling
   
4. cold-shoulderosity work
5. Midget Gems all around, but not for you
6. pretendy deafnosity
7. walking on ahead
8. the quarter humpty (evils)
9. the half humpty (evils and withdrawal of all snacks)
10. the full humpty dumpty (walking away with full dignitosity at all times)
    

Oo-er! My first post of the month! It's also my 75th post! Before anyone goes all ballisticisimus on your studies I would like to fanks all the people who've supported my through out all my 75 posts.

Nobody uses this body to get back at… that!

This must be the lousiest weekend of my life. I hate staying at home in a weekend. I was supposed to go to the soiree but I had no transportation to go there and my parents weren't home. So instead of going to this party I was at home doing my damned home works and projects. It wasn't even production because I only finished one. I insist on changing our AP class' language into English.

I know, I do have a very boring life right now. Nothing exciting has been happening to me and it kinda sucks. This must the post-exam stress. If there is something exciting that will happen to me I'll totally blog it. Ahaha. See? I have no life. I better just go and rot myself to sleep.

If you want to, suggest a topic for me and I'll be doing a very long blog entry about that. Random stuffs.

(This is me when I became a vampire)

Maybe I'll do that survey/quiz I did a year ago.

RULES:. Put Your itunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Hot Stuff- Ashlee Simpson (I must be distracted…. Yuck! Ahahaha)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
This is My Now- Jordin Sparks (?!?)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Beat It- Michael Jackson (WHAHAHAHAH! Right now I want you to BEAT EEEEET! BEAT EEEEET!)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Time to Dance- Panic at the Disco (Party time!!! Woooh!)


WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Sing!- Renee Baughman, Don Perassi (Since when did I wanted to sing for a living?!)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Wouldn't It Be Nice- The Bloomfields (That's true. It would really be nice when I were older right now)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
The Mob Song- Beauty and the Beast (BWAAHAHHAHAHA! I knew it! I knew it! That little shit!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Roll With It- Oasis (I don't get it)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
April Love- Pay Boone (Awww… But I don't fall in love on an April. I don't fall in love because I don't have a heart)

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Get Nasty- Ashlee Simpson (WOOOH! Learn to say no!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
You and I Both- Jason Mraz (Awww. Jason Mraz is so hot!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Teenage Dirtbag- Weezer (Fudge, I thought he was my crush but unfortunately I think of him as a teenage dirtbag)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Butterfly- Jason Mraz (Enough said. I'm mentally ill. Aahahahha)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Impossible- Kelly Clarkson (Which means I will be impossible to be contacted because I'm super busy being a Queen)


WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Hedwig's Theme- John Williams (I DON'T LOVE DANIEL RADCLIFFE! I LOVE HEDWIG! BOOOOM <--- If you know what I mean.)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
What Katie Did- The Libertines (Who's Katie?)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
I Write Sins Not Tragedies- Panic at the Disco (What a beautiful wedding)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Halo/Walking on Sunshine- Glee Cast (You mean I'm going to be a saint in Heaven?)


WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Movies of Myself- Rufus Wainwright (Let me paraphrase this… Movies means Film, which is correct for me, and Myself means ME, my other hobby!)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Shine- Bond (Because I'm a vampire!)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Sweet Home Alabama- Bo Bice (Shhh. Don't tell anybody that I live in Alabama)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Thank You- Westlife (Thanks?)

-end-

You know I cheated.

Don't Let Me Down

I feel like a failure today. As always, when I feel like this, my self-esteem goes down to the deepest part of the ocean. This also causes sudden breakdowns and being a bitch to someone just to feel good about myself. No, I will not stand/sit here and be like that. I have grown up now and being mean to someone is just immature unless I'm in a fight (which I'm not).

I wanted to do something for once. I want to lead something this year. Sometimes, my talents (whatever those talents are) are not appreciated by people, especially the teachers. Boy, they teach us about not to have a low self-esteem at school and yet we have them because of it (i.e. favoritism, neglect of talents, neglect of showing who you really are, hate-ism, racism, &c. in school). I'm not going to say bad things about my school but isn't it the truth? Seriously, what do you want me to do? Say that the school is just so awesome. No! I don't mean school is awesome- it is- it's just there are some things that make the school unlikable.

I also feel like that I am in a world that people just want me to fail. I'm not good at anything you're good at, that's sure, but I have other talents. Why not acknowledge that? For some this might be your reply "Because there are just people better than you." I'm sick and tired being an outcast in my own life. It's my life so stay the hell away from it (I speak to the people who bring me down, not a specific person).

This must probably be confusing for those who just don't get it; actually, this will be confusing to all of you because you don't know what's going on in my life right now. I hope though you will not think that this is you (for those who are thinking right now "Oh shit, what the hell is she talking about? I didn't even do anything to her! Must hate her now!" Well you are a very sadistic narcissist.) Because I speak to those people who try hard to bring me down.

Obviously, I'll try to make myself happy. Maybe I'm just tired from all this crap (i.e. homeworks, project &c.), though not all of them are crap. Pardon my French, when I said crap I don't mean that as a really bad thing. It's crappy because it's too many. I'm going to end this entry with a story (not, I'm not someone who's saying a sermon that I need to have an example about whatever I'm talking about. For those who all know what I'm talking about… you know… Monday?)

(I HAVE LOTS OF PROJECTS, HOMEWORKS AND &c.
Wish those are my books! ahahaha)

Everyone feels so shitty today. :| Power to the EMORANGERS!

The Cask of Janintillado and the Masque of Somethin’

This must probably be a late post since tests ended this morning and I'm just blogging it right now. There's just one thing that pissed me off a few hours ago while taking the Health exam, I didn't finished. Seriously! I forgot that one disorder, La Belle (I think), and put La Shizo (I just want to fill in all the blanks). I really don't like not finishing an exam because it lowers my self-esteem and the thought of not finishing an exam will be stuck in my brain for the whole day or the whole week. It's something that isn't productive. I want to be like Sue Sylvester so failure is not an option (ahahaha!).
So far so good with my tests results (test results? tests result?) and yet not so good. Lesson learned (this week): Never make a bet with Dana that you'll have a higher grade in an exam than her (so not worth it). She's robbing 30 pesos from me and a couple of hundreds from Marrah (poor Marrah. Don't worry you'll get her in the Filipino exam). Monopoly Money.
Seriously tired right now and I'm gonna cut this entry short. I'm going to sleep right now, for the first time this week I'm going to sleep before midnight.
I fell asleep as a city of bricks; I woke up as a city of marbles. (note to self: Must argue with history teacher about the last test of her exam [>:)) ahaahahaha just kidding!]. Must tell her that no one has won a war without using Sun Tzu's The Art of War [statistically speaking]. Must finish reading The Art of War.)

If I should cast of this tattered coat
and go free into the mighty sky
if I should find nothing there
but the vast blue,
echoless, ignorant--
What then?

Answer: Then you will find Landon!

JAMIE JOHNSTON REPLIED TO ME AGAIN! :">

To Take My Mind Out of This Hell Hole

I love Glee and the character I love the most in Glee is Sue Sylvester ever since I've watched episode 1 (last June). So Sue Sylvester was a trending topic in twitter the other day and I just love the jokes they made for her. Here are some of the jokes that are absolutely hilarious.

Lord Voldemort refers to Sue Sylvester as "she who must not be named."

Sue Sylvester's calendar goes straight from March 31st to April 2nd; no one fools Sue Sylvester.

Sue Sylvester does not go 'hunting', because that terminology implies failure. Sue Sylvester goes killing.

They once made a Sue Sylvester toilet paper, but there was a problem - It wouldn't take shit from anybody.

Ozzy Osbourne bites the heads off of bats. Sue Sylvester bites the heads off of Siberian Tigers.

Sue Sylvester doesn't mow her lawn. She just stands out in her yard, and dares her grass to grow.

Sue Sylvester would have never let Taylor Swift finish.

When Sue Sylvester declared war on Fox News they didn't fight back.

There is no 'ctrl' button on Sue Sylvester's computer. Sue Sylvester is always in control.

MY FAVORITE!! When Sue Sylvester does a pushup, she isn't lifting herself up, she's pushing the Earth down.

it was stuff like "Sue Sylvester is the reason Santa doesn't exist.

I better continue studying again! :)) At least I'm calm now.

Let's Make (A Game)

Let's make #astroboylovesme a trending topic in Twitter (Wala lang malakas trip ko ngayon)
Let's make vampires
Let's make French Toast
Let's make people dance like there's no tomorrow
Let's make a movie out of my life and make that a musical
Let's make awesomeness and janineness put together and make a universal awesome janine!
Please Let's make Janine Stop! :))

I'm serious about making #astroboylovesme a tending topic in Twitter

My Celebrity Crush!!

JAMIE JOHNSTON!!!! :">

TWITTER!!
janitheloser: @JJandSoundspeed I love you!!
JJandSoundspeed: @janitheloser Thanks!

For more information about my new crush: click JAMIE IS HOT!
in a few day he'll be replaced

For The Future Entrepreneurs of The Future

I am really tired now. First day back from a not so long weekend and I'm already tired. I hate school. School makes me look old. Not in a good way. (Before MOR)

To Do List
[x] Practice for Henry Sy
[] Watch JONAS
[] Watch 90210
[] Watch Gossip Girl
[x] Watch Glee
[] Practice for Music
[] Watch Vampire Diaires
[x] Watch TBL (CANCELLED! :|)

Events:
- Practice for Entrep
- Practical Test in Music
- Monday Schedule
- Training
- Peace Talk

Today: (English Period) Poetry reading was really patok. Super funny expressions from some of my classmates. (CL Period) Talking about what were the causes of sins was really funny. After that I dozed out. (Peace Talk) That was not about Peace. There was this funny kid, though. (Music) Practical test. :| ahahaha. You see how boring life is.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOM FELTON!!!

This Entry is really really Boring.... Now I'm going to watch Degrassi.
Peace Out

There's No Classes TODAY! (BECAUSE IT'S SATURDAY!)

Today: Training was hard for me today. I don't know but last year I could easily catch a fly ball and a ground ball but now I can't. I keep on making mistakes and it's getting annoying. I can't quit now... I love the game. It's just hard. I'm just tired every single day. I just fake a smile for others so that they won't feel what I'm feeling.
I just had an idea for Investi Project next year that involves softball and video project. I want to do it. I hope it will get approve next year.
I missed The Wonder Years today. First episode and I've missed it. I hope there's a rerun tonight.

Retreat: I love it. Even though it was short, it was very inspiring. Even the Reco-letters are inspiring. Thanks to Gel I know what I want to do in life. I want to be a director or a film maker. I know it's a job that people will say is a load of crap but who cares. Film is my passion. I love our class. "Walang Malas, Walang Swerte!" (I kept on saying that during training and believe me when you're playing softball it will never work because whatever you do the ball is still going towards you.)

Degrassi: I've been obsessed with it! I've finished 2 seasons this week and I'm kinda behind on The Nanny and it just ended in hallmark (and started again but in season 1). I love the show! Seriously. I remember watching it when I was younger but season 1 only. Ugghhh... After a day's hard work it's always fun watching degrassi.

Trigo: I love trigo and all but graphing is dirty work. Now I need to rewrite my homework. ahahaha.

Yesterday's Quote From Me (directly from Sam's Twitter): (It starts raining) "YES! WALANG PASOK BUKAS! Kasi Saturday."
In translation: (It starts raining) "YES! THERE'S NO CLASSES TOMORROW! Because Saturday."
In Spanish: ¡(Empieza a llover) "SI! ¡No HAY CLASES MAÑANA! Porque el sábado".
In French: (Il commence pleuvoir) "OUI ! Il n'y A pas DE CLASSE DEMAIN ! Parce que samedi ."
In German: (Es fängt an zu regnen) „JA! ES GIBT KEINE KLASSEN MORGEN! Weil Samstag“.

Post-its By different People

Disordered Passion and umibig kay Sr. Lopez, JaNini :| - Astroboy <3 (Sister Lopez ba, Arbelle?)

JanineLove. Mother
Eto ang araw na ginawa ng ating Panginoon, tayo'y magsaya at magalak. Goodluck sa test!
Ilyyyy! Be Good! "Tell 'em that is Human Nature" - Astroboyyy! (Kelan 'to?)

Janine. you've been a very good girl that Santa would give gifts to this Christmas. :) JUST STUDY HARD. Love Geometry. Love Me! \:D/ I Love you! - Astroboy<3 style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102);">(Puro galing kay arbelle :)) )

Hey Janine! - Aina (Hey, Aina!)

Hi Janine :D
Roomie! Sorry di ako natulog sa room kagabi =)) haha *hug* - june (Awww it's all right! takot! :-P Joke)

Ja-thirty one ngayon! :)
You are not alone for I am here with you :))
ILY!! -Aina (ahahaha :-P)

Janine!
Oh Look, it's pink. Wala lang.
ABC, it's easy as 1,2,3
blah blah blah Do Re Mi!
Janine=LUST! =)))
'Kidding! -Innai :) Study well :D (Di mo alam yung lyrics 'no?)

Stressed Out: Part Two

This is the type of stress that I have (I was suppose to post this last week but I was busy) - Clearly, I have Hyperstress which is, according to the handouts given to us by our Health teacher, another type of negative stress.
- It comes when a person is forced to undertake or undergo more than he or she can take.
- A stressful job that overworks an individual will cause that individual to face hyperstress.
- A person with this type of stress may tend to react to even the littlest of stressors (source of stress) with hugh emotional outbreaks
- This can lead to serious emotional and physical repercussions.
(source: www.stressfocus.com)

Early Warning Signs of Stress
(if there is an "x" mark on it it means I'm experiencing whatever it is stated after the "x" mark)

Physical Signs
[x] Muscle Tension
[x] Headache
[x] Upset Stomach (must be because I did not eat lunch today)
[x] Pounding heart (after every subject)
[x] Shortness of breath (again, after every subject)
[x] Increased sweating (ugh!)
[x] Dry mouth (This sucks because I don't always bring my lip balm at school)
[] Skin Rash (never had one)
[x] Trembling or twitching
[x] Grinding teeth, nail biting (when I'm angry when there's lots of home work to be done, grinding teeth, I mean)

Emotional Signs
[x] Irritability, anger (always. Note to self: must change this attitude)
[x] Impatience (Bayani Third World)
[x] Nervousness (before every subject)
[x] Forgetfulness (names of classmates :|)
[x] Inability to concentrate (laugh)
[x] Negative thinking ("Wala na, di na ako papasa!")
[x] Loss of interest
[x] Self-criticism
[x] Increased crying (WAAAH! :(( )

Behavior Signs
[x] Loss of appetite (shhhh!)
[x] Overeating (Loss of appetite and this?! Pick one, Janine!)
[] Drug abuse (does vitamin c tablets count?)
[x] Sleep problems (Note to self: must change this)
[x] Restlessness
[x] Hurrying, talking fast
[x] Withdrawing from relationship (friendships :|)
[x] Criticizing others (all the time!)
[] RecklessBehavior
[] Fidgeting

All in all, I can't take it anymore. You might ask why do I complain and yet have time writing this entry . . . well loss of interest, I guess. And this makes me feel better and organize and it helps me with my everyday activities. The thing is, I need to do my health homework (art of cramming, I should write a book about it) and I've loss interest in it. No one can blame me, the topic that I've brought up is still related to Health. I'm in the verge of falling asleep and failing to do my homework. Damn me and my lack of interest. Damn my art of cramming. As much as I curse cramming let me say that I love it! To tell you the truth, I work best under pressure. Except for over the top projects (such as IPs, History Projects and others, they will always be an other).

Today: Mary-like dressing. Wore a black skirt and a yellow top, I looked like an angry teacher. This that may have started suckish but it was great at the end. Because I got to wore normal clothes. Hallilujah! Training! Training! Training!

NOW I CAN REST IN PEACE
NOT!

"If that's your wish . . . .

. . . . then I'll command it!"
I'm so tired even though I didn't train today (I promise to attend this Saturday. If I don't you can kill me, joke). Every time the bell rings I always worry. I don't know why but today I'm a little bit paranoid today or maybe I'm just crazy again (definition of crazy: blowing behind Aina's head so that she will get annoyed; Talking to myself until seatmates get annoyed; Fall asleep while eyes are open; Laugh while Religion Teacher teaches us about sin because of the note A gave). Come to think of it, I must be feeling both. I mean, I get paranoid every subject because I feel that there's gonna be a test and I'm going to fail it or there might be a new lesson that I will not understand because I was out last thursday. As I was saying; Darn, I'm really tired! I skipped training because I wasn't feeling so well and I've got a history that whenever I train and it's raining I become easily tired, i.e. weak (by weak I mean hyperventilating until I turn pale).

We had our music practice for "Linggo ng Wika" during our History and Health class today and it was funny because half of the class was gone and we were suppose to report about something. Anyway, I love our composition for "Linggo ng Wika". I kinda laugh (in the inside) when the teacher tried to choreograph a dance to accompany our composition and started dancing like loons (I'm just kidding. hahaha. Like Greg Evans once said "Laugh at yourself once in a while; give yourself a break." If you won't laugh at yourself once in a while then I will... okay okay, now I'm kidding!). "Hydrogen has no right to have 6 electrons!" (poor Hydrogen, must be pretty lonely on top of the periodic, table far far away from Helium)

To Do List (for Today and Tomorrow, August 26):
[x] Attend School (one down, see!)
[] Get notes in AP, Music and English (August 20 Notes)
[x] Study for Chem
[x] Attend music practice for Linggo ng Wika
[] Memorize Ions and Charges
[] Attend Softball Training
[] Make notes for Chem
[] Do Health index card (3x5. I don't know what I'm going to put in it. Seriously)
[] Read Postulate 14-16
[] Watch The Time Traveler's Wife
[] Buy sour tapes
[] Do English Report
[] Go to school and leave ate Cha's glove there (under the stairs, if you want to know where)
[] Actually live after this! :|

Events:
- Linggo ng Wika (Part 2)
- Music Practice for Linggo ng Wika (During History and Health period)
- Softball Training
- General Assembly

"Till a' the seas gang dry, my dear, And the rocks melt wi' the sun: I will love thess till, my dear, While the sands o' life shall run:"

Further Project/s: Wish List =)) (If that is your wish, I'll Command it!)

Let me start now

I wish for a Sony HDR-FX1 (worth: P259,999.00 . . . will never have one I'll just dream about it)
If not. . . I wish for a Sony HDR-UX20 (worth: P 46,999.00 . . . I don't know)